As certain of my remarks have, I believe, been taken out of context, I am providing, to anyone still interested, as complete a transcript as I can of what actually happened during my encore at Yoshi’s, based on the bootleg first posted by the San Francisco Bay Guardian on March 18. Nothing has been edited out, and any further corrections are welcome. The only liberty I’ve taken is to highlight those words, in bold, pointing to intentions which were misinterpreted at the time, and have since remained obscure.
 
 
Of course the fault for that is completely my own, and I can not and do not blame anyone for defending the gay community.
 
 
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Stage Set
Three portraits: Georgia, Michelle, Frida (appx 6’ x 4’ each)
Stage Left – Georgia’s image is framed backwards, her portrait is visible behind the frame. Invisible to the audience, the word TRUTH is on the front of the frame
 
 
Center Stage – Michelle’s portrait; the image is visible and the frame is invisible. Above her face is a word balloon ‘@mshocked’ and below her face is a word balloon ‘join the discussion.’ Invisible to the audience, the word VS. on the back of her image. To the right of her portrait, a stool is placed.
 
 
Stage Right – Frida’s image is framed backwards, her portrait is visible behind the frame. Invisible to the audience, the word REALITY is on the front of the frame.
 
 
Foreshadow
Onstage, Michelle confesses she is terrified. Audience is encouraging. Michelle inquires if she is the only one there who believes an Invisible Man is in the room. A timid woman in the back raises her hand and Michelle invites her onstage. After a few gentle urgings to her and further solicitation to the audience, @TheGuapo volunteers. He steps onstage to operate her Twitter handle, @mshocked from her iPhone as her ‘avatar.’ After revealing the words “TRUTH”  “VS.” “REALITY” by turning the portraits opposite, Michelle offers the choice to her audience. Per @TheGuapo, the audience chooses TRUTH. Thus, Michelle plays 10 songs sequentially from Short Sharp Shocked with little comment. She bows and leaves the stage. Audience applauds.
 
 
Encore – (content is from the bootleg recording)
Yoshi: Ladies and gentlemen, please welcome Michelle Shocked.
 
 
Michelle: Hey, y’all wanna hear what some of y’all just said? Alright. Let’s see, where do I start? (reading tweets) Umm..
 
Tweet: “Awesome” (laughter).
 
Michelle: I don’t know where it’s starting, so I’m just gonna start here.
 
Tweet: “Oh, my other big favorite, along with Jump Jim Crow”…
 
Michelle: Where are you, Elise?
 
Tweet: “That’s OK. I’m Anchored Down in Anchorage, even with commercial breaks.” (laughter)
 
Tweet: “Thanks for the shout-out for ‘Strike Debt’ #lifeordebt.”
 
Michelle: That’s from Lisa, and Lisa was the only person who joined the conversation before the show. Remember where it said….(indicating the word balloons, no longer visible, on the portrait)
 
Audience: (laughter) Yeahhh. Now we remember. Right there right there right there right there…. 
 
Audience: (in a German accent) Hello. It’s so good to see you again.
 
Michelle: (responding to the tweet sent to Lisa prior to the show) I said ‘the Calvary has finally arrived,’ and I think I meant ‘cavalry,’ but I’m not sure I did. (laughter)
 
Tweet: “Every time you sing Anchorage, I think of my six-year-old skateboard punk rocker Stella.” (audience members hoot)
 
Tweet: “Hey ‘Chelle, how’s that jack rabbit running?”
 
Michelle: I think that’s a request for a song that I have called “Jump Little Rabbit” ‘cause Easter’s comin’, y’know?
 
Tweet: “Some things only get better with age. That song was clearly one of them.”
 
Michelle: Thank you, Christine!
 
Tweet: “Reality” could include some Gospel.” (audience laughter)
 
Michelle: Any other lovers of Invisible Man in here? This is sincere – the two things that I’m passionate about, y’all…I love me some Jesus, and I love liberation. And I did not know how I was gonna come to San Francisco, and…authentically represent the….(leaves thought hanging, reads further)
 
Tweet: “We came to see you. Don’t need no other guitar-player no how. Great first set.”
 
Tweet: “Rocked my baby to sleep to ‘Anchorage’ 13 years ago,”
 
 
Michelle: (acknowledging the tweet is from the wife of the avatar, @TheGuapo, who is now seated in the audience) ..and thank you for the loan thereof, of your husband. Truth be damned, let’s go with reality, just for a while. And I know I talk a lot, and apparently at some point it’s gonna either put me in a coma, or cause me to have cancer and a premature death, but I really can’t help it now. I’ve dedicated 25 years to becoming more and more authentic, and I’m told that has value in the current culture but I’m not 100% convinced (laughter). But there’s no turning back. I’ve been practicing for quite a while.
 
 
But I’ve got some pretty wonderful role models to draw on. Georgia O’Keefe (applause). For those of you who don’t believe there’s an Invisible Guy here in the room with us now, you may be inspired by her example. There was this one mountain she painted over and over and over again. It was very near her house in Santa Fe, the mountain was called Pedernal. And finally someone asked her, “Why, Georgia?” – I don’t think she had Twitter, but somebody got to her –  “Why do you paint this mountain so many times?” And her answer was quite confounding for someone who confessed to NOT believe in God. She said, “Because God told me, if I painted it enough, He would give it to me.” I’m just telling you the facts (laughter). And so, sure enough, when Georgia died – anybody want to hazard a guess as to where they scattered her ashes? Unh-hunh. So, it’s not too late. You can jump into this Jesus game anytime you want.
 
 
But I was in a prayer meeting yesterday, and you gotta appreciate how scared, how scared, folks on that side of the equation are. I mean, from their vantage point – and I really shouldn’t say ‘their,’ because it’s mine, too – we are nearly at the end of time, and from our vantage point, we’re gonna be, uh – I think maybe Chinese water torture is gonna be the means, the method – once Prop 8 gets instated, and once preachers are held at gunpoint, and forced to marry the homosexuals. I’m pretty sure that will be the signal for Jesus to come on back.
 
 
Audience: (laughter) Whaaat?
 
 
Michelle: You just said you wanted reaiity (laughs). If someone would be so gracious as to please tweet out, “Michelle Shocked just said, from stage, ‘God hates faggots’” (laughter). Would you do it now? (laughter)
 
 
Audience: You can have your [muffled], Michelle! I think some people got it [undetermined]
 
 
Michelle: (adjusting strap) Just adjusting my bra strap. Nothing worth getting in a froth about.
 
 
Audience: What?
 
 
Michelle: You’re confounded! Matt, you might need to get back up here.
 
 
Matt (@TheGuapo): There’s gonna be aloooot of talkin’ about that.
 
 
Michelle: I ain’t scared. I ain’t scared. This is not a tribunal. This is one woman’s opinion. And…it’s fun. It’s a lotta fun. I am so committed to loving each and every soul in this room tonight, that I could not come here and ignore you. I could not come here and pretend that I was above the conversation, and I couldn’t pretend that I was beneath it either. I had to join it. Thank you for that one handclap – I do that all the time.  Matter of fact, I was in church a couple of…you know it’s come to a bad point when the white girl is sitting in a Black church, I’m clappin’ (claps) and the man in front of me turns around and goes, ‘That’s irritatin’.’ (audience laughter) Hallelujah. I’d like to play you some songs, but –
 
 
Woman: I hope you get wise, Michelle, and realize that there’s nothing to fear. There’s nothing to fear. Everybody is deserving of your, whoever your God is, His love.   
 
 
Michelle: Can I respond to that, off the microphone?
 
 
Woman: You can respond to that ON the microphone.
 
 
Michelle: (angry, shouting) I AM SICK OF CHRISTIANS, FILLED WITH HYPOCRISY, HIDING BEHIND THE SYMBOL OF A CROSS!
 
 
Woman: C’mon, show it. Show your true self. C’mon!
 
 
Audience: Could you clarify? C’mon Michelle! Say what you mean!  What are you so afraid of?
 
 
Michelle: I believe that the word of God is just what it says it is: the truth.
 
 
Audience: (getting restive) Oh dear God. The who? Let’s not forget, in the Bible….Frightening, frightening, etc.
 
 
Michelle: I’m just saying one thing. Just one thing. Just one thing. Porque de tal manera amo Dios al mundo, que ha dado a su Hijo unigenito, para que todo aquel que en El cree, no se pierda, mas tenga vida eterna.
 
 
Audience: We don’t speak Spanish!
 
 
Michelle: You don’t speak Spanish?
 
 
Audience: Oh no, we do! I don’t! Say it in English!
 
 
Michelle: (starts to play guitar, then singing)
Leaving town while I still can
Going down to the Yucatan
To become a wanted man
It happens that fast
Saying my goodbyes,
Now, mama, don’t you go and cry
I gotta try to live without a past
 
 
Shined my shoes, dressed the soles, only cost me five pesos
At this rate the money goes twice as far
Atencion, Señor, mas cerveza por favor
A rolling stone gathers his thoughts in a Mexican bar
 
 
(spoken, with guitar accompaniment)
I was heading down to Guatemala, during a very brief ceasefire in the hostilities. But I’d made the mistake of booking my flight on AeroMexico
 
 
Audience: Are you being homophobic, or….[muffled] That’s the most homophobic thing I ever heard…[muffled]…Yeah, but she’s in my town [muffled]….
 
 
Michelle: AeroMexico is owned by the Mexican government, so they arrange things so you can’t fly through Mexico without stopping for a night in Cancun  – which, I don’t know
 
 
Man near microphone, to waitress: Excuse me
 
 
Waitress: Are you ready for the check?
 
 
Man: Just one second. Where is the management of this place, to get this moron out of this place?
 
 
Michelle: Cancun is some people’s idea of paradise, a lot of fat, happy gringos saying, ‘Pépé, bring me another cerveza.’ So when the plane landed at the airport in Cancun, I told the taxi-driver, ‘Just take me into town, I’m gonna stay at a pension, avoid those fancy resorts.’ And to my surprise, another gringo asked, could he get a ride. I said sure. We got to the hotel, checked into our separate rooms – this story’s not going where you think it is – but about five minutes later, he comes knockin’ on my door, wanting to know, do I got change for a hundred dollar bill? I said “Man, this here is Mexico, they don’t use dollars here, they use pesos. But this was back when I was still drinking, so I said, “You wanna come around the corner with me to a bar for a beer? Maybe they’ll have change for your $100 there.” So we did. And they did.
 
 
(audience restive)
 
 
And after a beer, maybe two, OK three, he started explaining to me that he was supposed to be in Memphis the next morning, for a court hearing. This man was on the lam. But that’s alright, that’s alright, because he had bought a book. And that book was called “How to be a Fugitive.” Of course you realize, he’d just broken the first rule of the book: if you’re gonna be a fugitive, don’t tell nobody. After another beer, he told me how he was gonna get by in Mexico. He was gonna continue doin’ what he’d been doin’, which was makin’ guitars. Right there in his bag, he had a sample of his wares – did I wanna see ‘em? “Sure,” I told him. “Show me what you got.” And he pulled out the neck, the headstock of the guitar that he’d been working on. And right there on the end, like they all do, was the name of the luthier: Newman. New…Man. 
 
 
I ain’t gonna pass that up. So I wished him well – especially as he’d just broken the second rule of the book: if you’re gonna be a fugitive, don’t tell anybody your real name. I admit all I really know, is the little that he’d told me, but between you and me
 
 
(singing)
It’s best between the lines
Although I swear I’d heard him say there’d been a fiancée
Convicted of his love, but not his crime
Listen, y’all –
We are condemned by our own hand
A fugitive will understand
So forget everything you can  
What’s in a name?
 
 
But sure as the word made flesh the soul will confess
And this cup passes before us all the same
 
 
Oh, don’t bother to applaud – it’s not needed (faint applause continues). No, no, seriously. I don’t think I can handle all the adulation right now.
 
 
Woman: You don’t deserve it. Everyone should get up and leave! That was rotten! That was a horrible thing to say, if that’s what you believe.
 
 
Audience: Somebody over there believes she means something different. Maybe you’ve been confusing –
 
 
Michelle: I got a question for y’all. It’s a sincere question. How are you enjoying reality so far?
 
 
Audience: Not your reality
 
 
Michelle: Sucks pretty much, doesn’t it?
 
 
Audience: Oh yeah – (other woman continues yelling)
 
 
Michelle: You can’t have both.
 
 
Audience: Don’t come to San Francisco saying that shit.
 
 
Michelle: Don’t come to San Francisco saying that shit? Let’s take that note. I just got a tweet, they said, “Don’t come to San Francisco saying that shit.” Where do I go to say that shit?
 
 
Audience: Wow! Arkansas! That’s so weird, you’re so weird…
 
 
Michelle: It IS weird. (laughs) Yeah, it is weird…
 
 
Audience member: Your reality is tweets? Your reality is tweets?
 
 
Michelle: This is not my choice –
 
 
Audience: According to this show, we spent like 20% of this show on tweets. 80% was a show, and 40% was homophobia
 
 
Audience: Get her out of here –
 
 
Yoshi: Yeah, we’re…I’m sorry, ladies and gentlemen. Thank you very much for joining us tonight at Yoshi’s.  
 
 
Michelle: You’re pulling the plug? They’re giving me the hook, y’all.
 
 
Audience: Hell no! No! Hell no!
 
 
Michelle: I still got game. I still got game.
 
 
Audience: You don’t need no amplifier –
 
 
Michelle: Shall we lose the mic?
 
 
Yoshi: Yeah…
 
 
Audience: Continue!
 
 
Michelle: Alright. I will (scattered applause, stage sounds) Let’s move closer When they take away the microphone, you wanna stay close….
 
 
(sound of audience leaving)
 
 
(singing)
Although I know my love for you is true
I seem to bring out the very worst in you
Perhaps you though my love could be bought
Perhaps you think we’re happy, but we’re not –
 
 
(under Yoshi announcement:)
I tried to talk it out
But you just take it out on me
 
 
Yoshi: Ladies and gentlemen, on behalf of Yoshi’s, we appreciate your patronage, and your servers will be with you shortly with your tabs. Thank you so much for joining us, and we do hope to see you again back here very soon. Thank you.
 
 
(Michelle, still singing)
Shout at me to shut up
Turn the volume up on the TV
And when the neighbors all began to complain
You yell at me, and tell me it’s my treachery’s to blame
I gave you my trust
 
 
Audience: Michelle, we love you –
 
 
(still singing)
But I’m taking back the same
For the things you are doing in our name
listen, y’all –
All I ever needed you to show me was your soul
But I see that all you ever really wanted was control
And now I know this wasn’t part of your plan
But I’m singing this – citizen to country – not woman to man
I’m sayin’ that we should see other people
We should see other people
Oh I believe with all my heart
That we should start to see other people
 
 
(glasses being collected, crowd noise)
 
 
All I ever needed you to show me was your soul
But I see that all you ever really wanted was control
And now I know this wasn’t part of your plan
But I’m singing this – citizen to country – not woman to man
I’m sayin’ that we should see other people
We should see other people
Oh I believe with all my heart
That we should start to see other people
 
 
I just want y’all to know that I didn’t ask for a deposit for this performance, and I have pretty good reason to believe that when I leave here tonight, I’m gonna be told that I did not give anyone their money’s worth. And so now I’d like to pass the hat, and ask if you wouldn’t mind putting a dollar in for the folksinger, for the busker, for the street performer. And if that’s too kind, maybe you’ll support my initiative – a songbook with sheet music in it. You can read the words, you can see for yourself, between the lines. All I’m trying to say is, God bless us, every one. Thank you for coming.
 
 
(applause)